I never really never wanted you to like me back, and you dont. i just liked you cuz you were you around me and no one else. we would text eachother every day of every minute before, and no its like one text in ten minutes. i cant say i want this to change cuz i know it wont. i told you i liked you and you told me you didnt like me like that, and said good night and that was that. i want to talk to you still, but i wanna get over you, so like its best for me to stop. you’ll probably hate me or whatever after that but i dont want it to be all awkward during the family friend shit get togethers. it was already awkward before that for me, i dont want to to get anymore awkward. i hated myself a lot for setting you up with this one dude. i kept telling you yeah hes your guy and stuff but i hated it because he liked you. you guys stopped talking and i was like ohhh nows my chance to come in but i never did. and now that i did i regret it. i want to take it all back but i cant. it may sound corny or whatever but every night when it turned 11:11 i would wish for you and only you, and now at 11:11 I tell myself im such an idiot for doing that shit. I wanna fast forward time so i can see what happens to us in the future but i wont know till that time comes, if there ever is one. i knew it was a bad idea to like someone ive known since i was born. we did talk to 11 years and now we start talking and the first thing i did when i met you in july was think about how cute you got. i tried looking for pictures of us when we were little so i could see how we would look now, but guess what. your not in any of them. i looked through at least 1,000 photos just to find one picture of us, but i found nothing. i cant say this was a waste of time liking you cuz it really wasnt. i tried flirting and everything but it never worked out, so i just gotta move on from here……………….